Poetry

 

 

Who Are You?

 by Grayson

 

hopscotch, double dutch, kissing tag, barbie dolls

"let's play dress up, do you want to see my dolls?"

twirling around, "look at my new dress"

growing up, curling hair, wearing make up

putting on frilly clothes...

no...that was not me...

baseball, football, hide & seek, army men

"let's play war today. hey! i got a new bike.

wanna go build a fort?"

climbing trees growing up & changing(but not wanting to)

still doing things boys did, but starting to look

more like a girl

grew my hair, dated boys, went to prom

even wore a dress(yuck!)

felt weird, couldn't explain...

i think i was in drag

years later here i am...

crossing the lines between what i am and

what i want to be..

playing with fire

standing on the edge

flirting with disaster.

4-30-98

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You Can't Change

by Grayson

 

I can bind my chest & cut my hair

but you will never change

I can stop shaving my legs & grow hair under my arms

but you will never change

I can stick a needle into my thigh & take a drug

that makes my voice deepen

and hair grow on my face

but you, you will never change

So wipe that smug look off your face

stop trying to pity me & my life

Until you've walked a mile in my shoes

don't bother me with your sympathy

My life will be altered in one way

Or another

But no matter how I choose

to live

I know that you

Will never change

6-24-98

 





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